Have u ever reached a point in ur life werr u look back @ everything u have done in throughout all da yrs of ur life, and u realize dat ur whole life has had no meaning.. Like if u werr wondering senseless throughout all these years and have yet done anything that will ever matter.... n even da closest ppl around u r life "wtf?! get ur ass going, u'll never have these precious yrs no more".. and even worst "fckk i believe shit u say cuz u never do it".. n on those few occasions derr like "instead of thinking of stupid things, u should do something real wit ur life"....

well i have reached dat point werr im WTF!!!!!!!! lookin 4 something dat truly does matter 2 me, n im not saying things dat matter 2 ppl around me, but things dat matter 2 me... all those goals i've had but have i have let go.. things dat would really mean something 2 me.. im tired of da daily routine.. i honestly feel like im not myself ever.. always putting up a front.. wen in reality im fucken crazy...[not like mental, but like ready 2 go n do shit.. like fkk everything n lets go.. whatever dat is].. i feel like i hold back so in every way.. like i have molded myslef 2 b diz politicaly correct version of me... n its been going on for yrs.. n i feel dat i have oppressed myself.. n therefore oppressed my want 2 continue on a successful path... bumming.. hopeing one day everything will change.. but in reality is u [ME] who has 2 change.. otherwise my life will truly have no meaning..

its gonna b hard 2 b myself...once again.. but i need 2... i want 2... i wanna live a life of exitement.. no oatmeal shit!